given the fact that none of my friends took me off their blogroll, i figured maybe it meant they actually enjoyed reading my blog and were anticipating my return. OR. they're just too lazy to remove me from their blogroll. whatever.

anyway, i think things in my life are finally starting to turn around. this is primarily due to me slightly shifting my research topic to something more cognitive, as well as finally deciding that we won't be moving to minneapolis. this whole chain of events brings more uncertainty into our life, but what does it matter? the fact is that faith is something that works against uncertainty, all the while staring it in the face. and i believe that this is the right thing to do. you could call it "God's will", but that might be pushing it a little too far.

things that haven't changed? it's 1:18am. i wonder if this is ever going to change. probably not. unless i ever graduate and get a real job. and the chances of that happening?

i realized over this christmas break, when we were home visiting family and friends, that a lot of life boils down to how you react. shit is always going to happen; it's inevitable. however, the manner in which we react to life, in all its forms, largely determines the atmosphere, and thus attitude and character, of who we develop into. if we see life as a cynic, then we will become hard. if we see life as a pessimist, then we will become defeated. but if we choose to see life as opportunistic, and we realize our choices determine the outcome of those opportunities, then the sky will begin to open up, and we will begin to see heaven.